a bit slow on the editing, but this is from my last week in the States. two days before i left, my dad flew out to California to play in the National Senior Games. he and my high school wrestling coach finished 5th in badminton men's doubles. pretty good for 62. go Pops!
[die große Turnhalle von meiner Uni]i'm seriously considering spending some decent money on a wide open aperture. still, i got to play with motion in the shots. sehr toll zu schauen! i've got to figure out what i want to prepare for SPE in March without being overly cheesy. any suggestions from the fine arts crowd?
the next Exkursion was nothing compared to der große Autoreise aus Juli, but this lovely little island has a place in my heart and i had to visit before i left. side note: when i have to describe meine Staat, i always mention Ocracoke ('cuz everyone LUUUVZ pirates).
in English, though, i can better explain the atmosphere of this place. there really is nothing else like it. one could say that people fall trap to it's allure and become beachbums, but what does this matter if you're truly happy? to each his personal own, but Ocracoke works for most.
[the ferry ride home]natürlich i need something with a bigger rush, though. hence, the trip back to Swan Quarter was pretty fitting. my 'peace' of mind is better when thrown into unknowns. mistakes and mishaps are welcome. perfekt is relative just like everything else. ACHTUNG! leave now and go look at the photos if you don't like philosophic babble.
so, over here i feel right at home when everyone asks why i do things. i was a little defensive at first, with memories of the ever prude Amerika, but i gain confidence as my German improves. actually, i explained to a German dude last night that the language is so hard for me because, as an artist, i think on the level of subjective verbs and naturally, this is pretty advanced grammar and way over what my skill can handle at the moment. he was very supportive and i got a little boost about being a good American representative.
don't take the crack on the US too seriously. perhaps i have grown to love my country a little more, but (back on the relative topic) it's no more than cultural differences. i am happy that studying abroad helps me better explain my knowledge, because i DO have it. even here in Germany, i can pick out who is truly open. our world, unfortunately, still has a bit too much hate for my taste. at least, they take hate too seriously. i know i'm a bit of a free soul, but everyone has contradictions. zum Beispiel: i may live for the chaos, but it still needs tending.
which brings me back to my broken idea of 'home'. i have definitely found that, though big in actual size, the US is not big enough for me in/by mind and perhaps this is why i am plagued with wanderlust. Germany has proven the same, even with the restriction i have language-wise. again, don't think too negative. i am currently calling Amerika 'home', but for different reasons than most assume. namely, it is figurative as well as relative. =)
i could keep going. don't know where the energy level came from, but i should channel it in the direction of learning German. i am totally pumped about registering for my classes and getting this show on the road. i guess the waiting is a decent platform for making myself a little smarter. i'm never one to waste time, even if i'm not physically doing something.
bis später.
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